Sail to the Sun
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Category: Erotica/Gay-Lesbian Erotica/Romance
Description: The mixed-race Thai young man, Atid, could be transported from a shack near a U.S. air base in the jungles of Thailand to a swanky country inn in West Virginia, but he was no less owned by men who wanted to use him in America than he had been in Southeast Asia. This is the saga of Atid's escape from sexual servitude into the freedom to choose who, when, and how he could give his soul and body.
eBook Publisher: Excessica Publishing,
eBookwise Release Date: November 2010
3 Reader Ratings:
Available eBook Formats: OEBFF Format (IMP) [360 KB]
Reading time: 92-129 min.
"Shoot the moon." Another voice sailing through the air--and making my thoughts drift back, as the music drummed ever louder in my ears. I raised a leg high up the pole to cat calls from the murk, knowing I was nearing the moment when I unsnapped the thong and turned full frontal to the ring of reaching arms for an instant, a mere instant, before the spot was extinguished and I glided off stage, into the wings, and perhaps into the arms of a patron who had met Hoagie's price--me not knowing until Hoagie met us at the cell door what the price would buy.
Shoot the moon. Bringing to mind what my mother would whisper to me as she pulled the curtain across the bed, the smell of the smoke and the heavy breathing of the man--invariably an American from the air base--having already told me the curtain would be pulled. Just another lonely and horny American airmen--just like the one of many possibilities who had fathered me.
"Shush now, little Atid," she'd murmur. "Mother sails to the sun now."
Each time she'd say that I would feel warm and close to her, as my name, Atid, meant "sun," and for a moment, a moment only, I thought she was coming to me, to cover me with her arms and rock me back and forth and hum a tune of safety to me. But she never meant she was coming to me. And I would lay there on the other side of the thin curtain, hearing everything, knowing the moment she reached the sun, knowing she was being seared by the heat of the sun, crying out at the explosion.
It was not long, there in Udon Thani, before the American airmen came not always for my mother--but sometimes for me, and I learned myself what sailing to the sun could mean. Until then, I denied what it really meant. Sailing to the sun for me was rising out of the Thai jungles, above the trees and the fetid squalor of our alley and into the clean sunshine and the crisp air of the mountaintops. It was only a dream then; I didn't expect ever to do that. And when I did get glimpses of it, I was sorry that it only shed understanding on the conditions I was born into. I think I would have been happier never to have known more or better.